Still riding off the high of having my eyebrows threaded (and a few other things), I started this week in the best mood I’ve felt this month. I’ve been reading The Magic by Rhonda Byrne recently – a book on the law of attraction, gratitude, and how a positive outlook can lead to positive things.
I’m not claiming miracles have happened to me since I opened the book for the first time, but my outlook is changing. I was at such a low point in my life a couple of weeks ago – it’s what prompted me to write about my January blues. But in reality, it was more than feeling blue. Getting myself out of bed felt impossible, and after hours of being the colleague who is “always smiling”, crying myself to sleep felt like the only release. I’ve read a lot of negative reviews of the book among the positive, and I was sceptical too, I still am a bit. But in those moments of feeling so deeply low it gave me something to focus on other than feeling low and why I felt that way.
Putting out into the universe what I want in my life is my new thing – to be kinder to myself, to the world, to practice gratitude fully and loudly, and to continue being positive.
Changing a habit of a lifetime can be exhausting sometimes. There was a moment yesterday afternoon when I lost a bit of the wind in my sails – perhaps it was the midweek lull, or the atmosphere in the office – but I felt like it was a big step back, as if I was relapsing back to my old negative habits. I let the moment pass over me, I put on some feel good songs (Rusted Root is a favourite) and as quickly as I got into that mood, I managed to get myself out of it. For some, this isn’t a big deal and it’s certainly nothing to brag about. But I know the old me would have been miserable for the rest of the day.
I’m not naive enough to think that life isn’t going to throw more hurdles and obstacles at me – such is the name of the game. But I hope with time I learn to cope with them better and to kick their sorry ass. I’m only at the beginning of this journey, and even if I’m a little scared about falling back into my old habits, I’m feeling positive about this one.
Who knew that something as simple as an eyebrow threading session could be so powerful? Note to self: I must remember to say thank you to Julie at my next appointment for how good she made me feel afterwards.