I Won’t Chase You Anymore

Dear M,

I want to talk to you, to have deep, meaningful conversations or heck, even for us to be as we were before: familiar, not strangers. Is that too much to ask?

I know when you’re being off with me, and this is what you’re doing now. I don’t know why, and it’s the why that’s making me chase you. I hate questions left unanswered, and things left unsaid – it’s in my very nature to answer those questions and say those things. But when you aren’t communicating with me, it makes it impossible.

I won’t chase you anymore.

I don’t know what is going on, but I don’t have the energy for it anymore. I’ve dealt with an entire year of your games (more the fool me for letting you) and I’ve had enough. I don’t want to play along anymore. Count me out.

When you want to talk to me, I’ll be there waiting. Because I care. Because I believe you’re a good person behind all of this. But I also think there are deeper issues than you let on. If you need a friend, I’ll be there for you. You know how I feel about you, but if you’re happy playing the game for the sake of it, then please leave me out.

I just want you to be normal with me again. Is that too much to ask?

I won’t chase you. And I know you’ll come back because you always do. But why does it have to be damn difficult between us all the time? You can’t stop my positive outlook … yet.

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